We struggle with life, expecting things to happen in a certain way. Screen Shot 2015-05-28 at 8.07.30 pmYou swear, you pray. You feel that life has to turn out “this kind of” way. Something is missing. Something isn’t right.

Time passes, the mindset still remains the same. What was put in your path while stuck reminiscing, was always meant to stay. Not the thoughts twirling through the mind. Hopeless dreaming. They in fact, were the ones that had to die. Moving you into a new dimension. A new version of you was born, ever so easily. So slowly, that you didn’t notice until it was too late. Fate acting on your behalf. Until you were strong enough to carry your own weight.

Time changes. Feelings waver. What once was, never stays the same. The only 2 things that matter is: How much we loved. How deeply we tried. And how quickly we let go of those things that hurt us. No longer serving us.

We are 2 of the same. 2 souls. 2 beings. Trying to live. Whatever you are doing right now – feel it. It was always meant to be this way.

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Hope Happens

Ever felt like you were in a rut that you couldn’t see a way out of? Ever had a bad day that you felt was a little all too familiar? Waking up to the same mess, worry or defeat?
Ever heard someone tell you; ‘If you are going through hell, you may as well keep going?’

Everything that has ever changed the course of my life; or the life of anyone that I know has made a drastic change has started with one crucial thing. One special ingredient that made a detrimental difference in the way we might act, think or behaviour. That one thing I found was ~ hope.

talk_to_dogH – Hearing
O – Other
P – Peoples
E – Experience

Why you might ask was this such a crucial ingredient? In my experience, it was the only thing that opened me up to a possibility that things could be different. I accepted defeat at such an early age and I switch off to the world around me. I engraved a code of conduct about myself which I called ‘my reality’. My view of the world ~ the beliefs I had about all people, relationships and even myself. All backed by daily actions (or lack there of) that proofed the very existence of these beliefs.

Then, when things didn’t go the way I wanted them to – I experience some pain. Emotional, physical & eventually some serious spiritual pain. The only thing capable of pulling me out of this insanity was HOPE.
Being in a position where I accepted that I didn’t know enough to listen to what someone else has to say – (But most Importantly!) someone who I respected. Someone that has the life I wanted to live. Not someone who gives out opinions with no joint consequence in giving it. Not someone who would run me down & justify it with a comment such as “I was just being honest”. These kinds of people are not your friends…

God, the power of the universe, the ultimate creative intelligence – whatever it is called to you. Let me tell you, it speaks to you through people. Everyday people. Everyday.
And whether you know this or not; all goods things come from this power. The rest is free will and our own individual consequences. We are giving all the answers we need if we are able to be quiet enough to hear the message and the signals of life.

How much are you listening?listen

What Do You Desire?

I have a question, that could change your life. He says confidently.
Smug  & a little Abruptly.

I lean into the whisper as its given so softly.
“Little one, Oh doubtful one… With all this pain enclosing….
Tell me, What do you desire?….”

A breath of free air surrounds me. An answer from me to whomever it may be,
Erupting Chaotically, I say..

“I was born to write. To rhyme with the universe. To move. To flow in its majestic rhythm. Words touching spaces that have yet to be created. It’s a freedom found in a piece within me.

I want to dance, to live life loving others. Flowing through them like a river running deep. I can feel the Water rising as the moon guides me feet.

I desire to stand out. To be one of my own faces.
Hold my hand out to those with the courage to restore balance to the forsaken. Strengthening a world of captivity. Giving out keys to those that believe.

 I want to live a life, with desire that is flowing…. Incessantly….  Perpetually!!”

Confused and amused. In turning to go, I see a smile left in the breeze… I am all alone.
I can’t believe I knew the answer all along…

Then another person walks up to me and I cant help but say…

So, tell me dear fellow… What do you desire?

Mind Matters

hard workoutFor those of you that have ever had the privilege of a one-on-one personal training session / boot camp / crossfit style workout, you would be aware of the fact that the mind has a habit of quitting a thousand times over before the body will.
I personally have experienced this many times over! Before I even head out the door (especially on a rather cold day), my mind is telling me to quit. It takes a real discipline to keep going sometimes. To shut off all conversations in your head convincing you why you should not go and continue in the abyss of why you got started in the first place.

Spending an intensive 10 days in Fiji that only served liquid meals for the first 4 days – made me appreciate this aspect from a totally different level. How sensitive we are to what we think we know about life.

The stories we tell ourselves that restrict us from truly moving forward carrying the weight of;
I would, but…
I wish I could, but..
I am just not…

Our “I Am” statements, that allow us to quit before the journey has even begun. Who do you tell yourself you are? As soon as you look into the mirror to wash your face. We all pause and stare intensely at the slightly puffy reflection standing before us.MirrorReflection
I am …
The most important 3-5 words you can start the day off with.
My question to you; Are they encouraging or are they demeaning?

Are you setting your day off on a high or loosing your grip before the day has even begun?

Chances are, (if your anything like me) some of the stories you tell yourself need to change. I learnt this in my 10 day trip across the big blue. I wasn’t demoralising myself, but I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was too passive in my approach to who I was going to be each day. If not for the benefit of myself, than for those around me.

I put it to you my friends,  Go write it on your mirror who you want to be daily. Make it a must to live a glorious life, not just one that goes with the motions. We are called for so much more (if you have the courage to live it full-out).

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I am a Warrior
I am Strength
I am Courage
I am a Leader

Who do you really want to be?

With purpose, Express


I was recommended the other day by a spiritual healer to allow myself to become more vulnerable to  be of better use to myself and others.

In true form; I got literal and wanted to define what that actual means?


  1. Exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally.
  2. (of a partnership) Liable to higher penalties
vulnerable watersRight… So how does that relate back to you or me? Like anything we experience that is different or uncomfortable, it is in essence a courageous act of faith.
To be responsible for everything that has happened in my life so far, to accept the penalty of honesty in all my affairs.

No matter what the cost.

My mind tells me,

it would come at the cost of:
Division from people who don’t understand.
I would be judged, neglected & misunderstood.My heart whispers to me:
(In reality) People will respect you for being yourself. You will be set free from the very thing that holds you back and your honesty may just help heal another individual who has experienced a similar event.

With closed mouths, we encounter a generation of closed hearts.

strength in vulnerability
Vulnerability starts with the courage to move pass the ego and pursue a genuine life. Rather than worried about how people will see you, start to look at how people see themselves through you. Any reaction is a direct reflection of the person opposite you. Only you have te power to feel judged or misunderstood.

Time to get vulnerable…

What is Fear Anyway?

Ever experience a feeling that stunted you from moving forward?
It feels so real that you cant help but get warped up in the very essence of it. The Bermuda triangle of your inner self.

Some call it fear.. What is fear anyway?

Fear is an idea built up in our mind/s.
It’s an inability to successfully comprehend something because you have yet to experience it.
It is your mind solely holding you back.
Yet it holds so much power in our world… Why?…

False Evidence appearing realWhat does FEAR stand for?
F – False
E – Evidence
A – Appearing
R – Real

The mind is a powerful thing.
It is structured to work for you in complex situations. It is a computer composed of data images and experiences up until this point.
Look around you, whose experiences have you computed that are not your own?
What TV shows are you watching that you are starting to take on a more realistic comprehension in your own life?
Are you surrounded by drama?

I was at the gym the other day; and I started to get into a fearful state. Everything in my body seized up and my performance dropped because I could not let go of this idea that what I was experiencing was going to be painful. Rather than take each moment as they came, my mind procrastinated and acted ‘safe’.

Do you know what the end result was?
I knew I could do better!

I knew that at the time, my mind gathered all this information of;
You are not as good as;
you shouldn’t;
this will hurt if;
blah blah.

Until I got to the end and realised; it isn’t that bad!

“My fear was overcome by doing”

Now that I could place a logical experience onto of it; it wasn’t so bad. I could do it again – and even better this time!

So what is fear anyway?

Face your fears. release yourself from fear
Fail, do it again – better!
This is where the ultimate growth in life comes from.


happiness-comes-from-withinEverybody wants to be happy.

Everybody wants peace of mind.

At the root of every desire there is the ideal that “Once I have achieved this, THEN I will be happy”.

So how about this golden rule?

Become a participator rather than a spectator!

Participate with the hopes that through pain, there is glory. Through new tests, there is common ground. And then, just maybe! I will be the person I have set out to be.

How many people (carefully) watching on the side lines can say that? Staying within a comfort zone to avoid any risk of jeopardising that “Happiness” they so desire.

Friends, if we are servicing ourselves and our own needs and wants. It is safe to say, we will never be happy.
I heard a preacher in the weekends sermon say:

“Your life will be as big as the cause you commit to.”

Happiness may be a state within you but it is caused by getting outside yourself. Reaching out to others.

happinessWe all want to be happy…

So why don’t we start by making someone else?